A Leaf has no other purpose than to be a leaf. Through its BEING/existence do the functions come. Purpose is being, and BEING is the purpose you seek. CONGRATULATIONS, you've aced the exam. Now surrender to yourself.
You don't seem to understand how powerful your mere existence is. See, you've been taught to deny it--that only by doing or having something can you validate your existence.
This is folly, ludicrous! The irony is that, no matter what you do or don't, have or don't have, YOU STILL EXIST!
People think they have to stress themselves out for years seeking their 'purpose'.
People think purpose is a thing you 'do'.
Nothing could be further from the truth.
Think about a tree.
Searching for your purpose as something that you 'do' is like thinking that the leaf on the tree is the source of energy for the entire tree, when, in fact, it is the extension of the tree's energy.
THE ROOTS ARE THE SOURCE!!!
So what are the roots of you?
YOUR BEING, YOUR EXISTENCE.
If you can STOP searching for the answer, sit still, and be okay with just being alive--and sit with that feeling in your heart, in your body, no matter what happens--you will find life begin to reveal something very profound to you.
What is that?
That your very BEING is your PURPOSE.
Sounds silly, I know, but think about this:
Since you already exist,
IT IS YOUR EXISTENCE THAT VALIDATES WHAT YOU DO AND HAVE, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND.
In other words, by acknowledging your very BEING through the ability to sit still and be content with the life you are living, life, EXISTENCE itself, which you are, will begin to reveal a 'purpose' to you; it will reveal a 'thing that you do'.
When you settle into a space of gratitude, and focus on the positive in life, you settle into your BEING. No matter how your life has been, YOU ARE ALIVE, YOU EXIST, AND THAT MUST BE FOR A REASON.
Because you exist, you must already be validated.
Because you exist, you already matter.
Loving that you exist begins to draw better and better things to you;
YOU BECOME A VORTEX, A WHIRLPOOL, SUCKING IN BLESSINGS TOWARD THE CENTER, WHICH IS YOU.
So stop 'searching' for your 'thing to do' and realize that it has already been found--YOU EXIST.
Now surrender to being grateful that you exist, and surrender to the blessings that are coming.
BECAUSE THEY FUCKING ARE.