F*ck Your bad trip bro!

This is kind of an irritated entry.

Ever since I took on the mantle of thinking positively about myself, the Universe (aka ME) has 'tested' my resolve by introducing certain negative elements from my subconscious mind as representations in the physical. Let me explain in a few words: people and circumstances.

The thing that has begun to irritate me as I have begun to think positively is, HOW MUCH PEOPLE ARE WILLING TO ARGUE AND DEFEND NEGATIVITY AS 'REALITY'.

~*sigh*~

::Holds head in hand::

This is complete bollocks.

Negativity is A REALITY, not THE REALITY. It is a CHOICE.

Now I understand the irony of being irritated, commonly known to be a negative state, but I believe that I have been triggered in a particular way. I believe that I am like the silent kid that was picked on and rarely fought back, only to come to adulthood and realize he's pissed about all the disrespect he endured--wait, I AM THAT KID!

This entry is putting my foot down to all the negativity that comes up in my mind, and reflected in people who have not raised their consciousness enough to realize that negativity is a choice, not a mandate, not an imposed reality by some outside force.

Think about this--everything that is physical that you use first started out as an idea in someone's mind. WITHOUT EXCEPTION, WITHOUT EQUIVOCATION. EVERYTHING.

So--

It would suffice to say that those that are happy and live happy think happy. Those that are rich and live rich think rich. Those that are successful and live successful think success. See the pattern here?

The same applies for those who live poor, miserable, and unsuccessfully.

Now, that's not fair to the people who are poor and miserable, you might say.

But the fact of the matter is that, when you see from a different perspective, you see how everyone is literally creating their own experience.

When you are bogged down in the reality that you have been told to believe is real (because you have) you cannot see this.

Think about it, and be honest with yourself. If you are miserable in your life, can you really say to me that you aren't thinking negative thoughts about yourself? Think about the thoughts you think everyday. If you're too outwardly focused on what others think of you, because you believe lowly of yourself, that's a thought. A very POWERFUL THOUGHT, because it is the generating thought that creates your daily misery.

Ok, I blew off some steam; time to calm down now.

Changing our thoughts can be as difficult or as easy as we choose. Difficulty in changing the way we think about ourselves is not really difficulty at all--it is attachment, addiction, to the old way of thinking. If you understand why thinking positively is important, and cease to see it as an avoidance of negativity, you are on your way.

I love to give food examples, because food is such as fundamentally shared reality for the consensus of humans on this planet:

When you go to a buffet, and see your favorite food, do you A) go to your favorite food, or B)try to avoid your least favorite food? If you answered B, you're just being a smartass and hurting yourself. If you answered A, you're being honest with yourself. It is the same with negative and positive thoughts.

People that argue for the negative are arguing for a reality that has been superimposed upon their innocent nature. As babies, yes we have alternate lives that affect our 'karma' in this one, but as children, we are sponges, only picking up that which is around us. If we have negative thinking parents, negative thinking news, negative thinking movies and music, negative thinking education, and negative thinking government, what kind of reality do you think that a typical person would grow up to believe is real? A negative thinking reality. Thusly, people arguing for negativity and negative experience are arguing for something that is not their initial innocent nature.

This is not to be insensitive to those that have gone or are going through 'negative' situations right now. What I'm saying is don't argue for it. Obviously you don't like the situation you are in, so why vouch for it? Vouch for thinking positively about yourself and your situation.

If a loved one is dying in your life, that can be seen as a negative situation. It is sad, surely, but would you argue vehemently for seemingly losing your connection with a loved one? What I mean is, would you argue for it as if you'd love for something like that to happen to you as often as possible? NO!!!

The choice to think positively is an affirmation of your true nature, which is bliss. "oh boy here he goes" I can hear some people say, but I have experienced this for myself. The enlightened masters, whom people tend to think are more important than they are, have said this. Why not take it literally? Why not see this wisdom as a living reality for yourself everyday?

The expression of your true nature, which is infinite bliss, is joy. When you feel joy, don't you feel good? Don't you feel more possibilities within you? Don't you just have an overall better view of life?

Ok, quiet those of you who believe that good experience is quickly overshadowed by bad, this is victim mentality.

YOU CREATE BOTH!

What many people don't understand is, that the subjective experience of every being is VASTLY more important than the so-called 'objective' one.

HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF IS SUPERIOR TO WHAT OTHERS THINK/FEEL ABOUT YOU.

Yes, there is a balance that must be created at a certain level of learning, where you don't want to overwhelm people with your personality, or be overwhelmed by theirs, but then there comes a point, in which you viscerally, deeply understand the power of thought, and everything in your life is congruent with your inner state.

Your inner state is blissful being. Positive thoughts affirm, support, and facilitate the realization of your nature as bliss in daily life.

People who think positive thoughts do not run from negative thoughts like the boogeyman, because A) avoiding a thought comes from a fear of negativity, which is a negative thought in itself and B) Real Positive thinker know that negative boogeyman thoughts are a choice that they do not prefer. Masters always choose what they prefer.

No disrespect or negation to those going through rough times; I am simply affiming that, even if you are going through something 'negative' a positive thought, even if it's just ONE, might just be your best bet to beginning to change your life, but that's just my opinion. If you can't think positively, at least begin to love yourself--ey, that might be my next topic!

Peace all,

G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

My New Video!

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Spawn...reboot?

I am a peripheral fan of Spawn. It's only because I've seen the movie, some of the animated series, and like one comic book. Nevertheless, when I first saw the film in 1997, it had a hugely positive impact on me.

Well, with that said, the creator of Spawn, Todd McFarlane, says that a Spawn reboot is in the works! I am literally jumping for joy. Anyway, check out the article from movie pilot for more deets http://moviepilot.com/read/stories/2014/01/27/todd-mcfarlane-says-spawn-reboot-will-be-a-definite-r-1225184?stamp=63735&subscribe_to=365402&utm_campaign=todd-mcfarlane-says-spawn-reboot-will-be-a-definite-r&utm_medium=facebook&utm_source=fb-channel-superheroes

G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

What is money REALLY?

I'm starting to look at what we call 'money' differently, and I've decided to not let the idea behind those pieces of paper rule my life.

I am not against those pieces of paper, I simply prefer an experience where I do not suffer for them.

No, currently I am not in the ideal financial situation (as a matter of fact, I only have a penny that I can count as my own), so lemme just clear the air on that one before I move on. People that write articles like this are 'broke' anyway with regards to those green papers.

Not that I intend to stay that way. However, given the new world humanity and I are creating for ourselves, the rules work a little differently when it comes to getting green paper.

1) you have to realize what money really is and

2) focus on making THAT, not the papers.

Why?

Because money is not paper; that's just what we're doing with it now.

So what is money then?

Money is an exchange, a relationship, that's all. It's an ability to 'do what you need to do when you need to do it' to quote one of my fave teachers, Bashar, but he calls it abundance.

Money is more an idea, a feeling than physical.

When you get up in the morning and feel really good, don't you feel like the world is at your fingertips, or at least that you have access to more possibilities? You feel relaxed, more open 'giving and receiving'? Well, that's money.

If you doubt me, ever heard someone say "I feel like a million dollars?" Yup. Even in that old saying real knowledge is hidden.

That good feeling you have leads you to make different choices in your behavior, doesn't it? You walk with more confidence, you talk to people you've never talked to before, you learn things about them you've never known before...you feel exhilarated--at least, you feel joyful and content.

Those new things you were inspired to do and say may create new relationships, or lead to new opportunities. Or these relationships may be a door to new opportunities.

These opportunities may lead to still more opportunities that make you feel more joyful and ecstatic until you find a money-making opportunity!

Now I'm not saying this is guaranteed to happen, but if you understand how energy works, especially the energy of the heart, you can dig where I'm coming from.

The heart energy is the center of your being. Touch this center, and you begin to discover that YOU are the Source of your life (or you can call it God). This Source inside is what gives rise to the world--that is, even those papers most call 'money'.

This means that who you are is the creator of money as most humans know it. Thus, money is part of the Divine creation. When you touch the Source you cease to be paper money's slave and begin to become its Master.

Once you touch the Source, you begin to attract people places and things into your experience that prime you to attract mire money. You create relationships with these nouns, which function as silent place holders for the manifestation of money in your life. The more you nurture those relationships that Source has blessed you with, the more the Source within you Glows, making you more joyful and ecstatic about life.

Your joy and Divine ecstasy eventually are reflected in your experience as paper dollars, giving you the ability to take care of yourself financially.

So what is money? It is a living relationship with the Source within, and a living relationship with people, places, and things without. Excuse me--it is a POSITIVE Living relationship with the aforementioned. Therefore, if you are a conscious spiritual being, you must understand that cultivation of these two relationships is paramount to getting money in a Divine way. I dunno, maybe your way is different. By any means, this may be something that can help you understand the inner workings of money.

Peace,

G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic        

LOVE MY CRAB MEAT

I used to hate being a Cancer.

I got started in Astrology in 2003, when a gorgeous and unsurprisingly flirtatious Gemini dropped some esoteric beauty on me. Ever since then I was hooked.

But I couldn't shake the feeling of being this emotional blobmess that I was. I pored over hundreds, possibly even thousands of books on Astrology, where virtually every description of the Crab was something to the effect of--"uh-oh, watch out for the moody Cancer!" That was depressing. Also taking into account that I was quite eccentric (I have rising Aquarius) and wasn't doing too hot in my relationships, I turned those descriptions onto myself--I was going to do everything in my power to NOT be a Cancer.

So I, over the years, muted my emotional self (which wasn't too difficult having a Virgo Moon); I held back my anger and tears. I held my tongue. I kept silent--but little did I know how I was slowly killing myself and my own life force.

It has only been in the past year that I've come to remember the power of my own emotional self. Little by little I peel back the layers of programming and pain. Little by little I remember my spontaneous Cancerian nature.

I used to dance.

I used to work at Wal-Mart over ten years ago. There were times I would be so happy, I would dance through the aisles, up and down the store. It wasn't until I heard rumors that I was homosexual that I stopped. I know there is nothing wrong with homosexuality, but, still, programming (plus I had a really hot girlfriend at the time)!

There were times, many years later, where I would wonder why I couldn't dance like that again.

I tried everything not to be as feminine as I was.

I was a boulder of a man. No more bubbling bliss, no more life giving juices, no more a supreme cauldron of galaxies I was. I was an anxious enslaved slab of a being with the deadest genitals ever (I mean, they still worked great, I'm just being poetic, flow with me!).

There came a point I used to despise my emotions. They always seemed to cause so much pain to the people I loved! So I shut them all down. No more pain. No more lashing out. There.

But from that point on, then I didn't know what I felt. I couldn't be vulnerable. I couldn't trust anyone; so much pain buried.

However, one day--after the Universe hemmed me in to make a decision for my life, as she usually does--I decided to step out on myself, I decided to take a stand for my own life. I didn't know how much doing the one thing I was afraid to do for years would bring me the joy I was seeking. I began to see how amazing my emotions were. How fresh it felt to feel them! To cry, to be angry, to be joyful, to DANCE again! To be a CRAB!!!

I also completely accepted my 'moody' nature. I observed that my 'mood' shifted several times a day, yet I wasn't out of control; I knew how to observe and not just react to everything. Upon further investigation, I began to realize that all these moods weren't always mine! (We Cancers are psychic, remember)

I accepted that this ability to feel and sense multiple energies a day is a gift, but I couldn't do it alone. I had to develop a relationship with God. When anything gets overwhelming, I just give it all to him.

(BTW, don't get hung up on the genders I'm giving to non gender beings, okay?)

I started Loving everything about me, and knowing that I'm the only person who can Love me the way I do, became an empowering thing...the nurturing side of me began to emerge, the side of me that sees the whole world as its children, and its breasts are full of Love and milk for them. Yes, even though I am a man, I sometimes see myself as a mother (Cancer rules motherly nature).

But I am more than a mother--I am the child, both sensitive and playful, both alone and loved, the one who feels 13 different feelings at once, doesn't need anyone to understand, and takes it in stride. It helps if someone does understand though.

NOW, I LOVE BEING A CANCER! I LOVES ME MY CRABMEAT!

G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

P.S. I understand that the qualities that are assigned to Cancer don't only manifest in this sign. I'm merely documenting my experience. If you're a Sagittarius and you feel me, hey, it's cool (but you probably have moon or rising Cancer or something *hee hee*)

Peace!

My opinion of 'Her'

I really liked 'Her'. Phoenix really played a good character. When you really got to see him open up, you found he was highly articulate and aware of his own feelings. #SpikeJonze really wrote a badass script. I was totally lost in the movie, the acting was so blessed good. Powerful message at the end about Love--that the Heart isn't just a container that gets filled; it is something that expands proportionately to how much Love it receives. When Love expands our hearts, even if we cannot share life with each other in the physical, even if we move on, we do not Love each other less, only more--for the truth is--my addition--we are all connected, and we never really apart.

I am learning to see relationship as serving to expand my heart only, not to possess physical bodies. That is why Love does not and cannot possess. No matter how your relationships are, if you can really look and see how they have expanded your heart, they have done their job. G.A.B.E. aka Excelsior Joymagic

My Current Awakening!

I used to write off energies or experiences that I thought would make me spiritually impure (goddang Moon in Virgo). But a series of recent experiences showed me that if I hadn't gone through those experiences, I wouldn't be mad e strong for the next challenge. I never full understood the value of experience in my life until that point, until I decided to Love myself. My whole life, for my delicate Moon Child Consciousness, was one psychological trauma after another, so I wasn't even afforded the privilege of valuing my experiences. I wasn't taught to Love myself, just the opposite.

I'm sure most of you can vibe with what I'm saying. My point for sharing all this is that one's traumas can keep on in a state of protectiveness, even from necessary experiences through which we can integrate our challenges and become a new version of ourselves that is ready for the next challenge.

I didn't know how to value challenge. The cloud of repressed psychological traumas makes you flee from the slightest sensing of it. It was only when a good friend showed me a very strong kind of Love that I did begin to believe new things were possible. I imbibed his lesson and began to do it for myself. All of a sudden, I began to have perspective on my life I've never had before. I saw my inner value. I saw that I wanted to share this value. I saw all the traumas I had been through as necessary for integration. I saw the integration as necessary for the next integration to get me closer to be the BEST VERSION OF MYSELF I could be--and that's an ever evolving thing.

I began to become more comfortable with the idea of evolution as a flowing process, and that I am at its mercy. I learned that being at its mercy isn't a bad thing, as long as you trust in God. And finally, I learned to not give a **** about the process at all, because I don't own it, and it doesn't own me. It's just a happening that I'm experiencing as an individual consciousness. Just Love Love Love Love choose to Love, because it is my very Being. I am a bubbling cauldron of blissgasm, from beyond the field where Universes are born. I am that I am, and I am never made impure, but to the consciousness of duality. I am always pure consciousness, untainted by life, because life comes from ME. And I do my Sadhana to keep my memory. I love you all, G.A.B.E. aka Excelsior Joymagic