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Monday, January 27, 2014


I am a peripheral fan of Spawn. It's only because I've seen the movie, some of the animated series, and like one comic book. Nevertheless, when I first saw the film in 1997, it had a hugely positive impact on me.

Well, with that said, the creator of Spawn, Todd McFarlane, says that a Spawn reboot is in the works! I am literally jumping for joy. Anyway, check out the article from movie pilot for more deets

G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

Saturday, January 25, 2014

What is money REALLY?

I'm starting to look at what we call 'money' differently, and I've decided to not let the idea behind those pieces of paper rule my life.

I am not against those pieces of paper, I simply prefer an experience where I do not suffer for them.

No, currently I am not in the ideal financial situation (as a matter of fact, I only have a penny that I can count as my own), so lemme just clear the air on that one before I move on. People that write articles like this are 'broke' anyway with regards to those green papers.

Not that I intend to stay that way. However, given the new world humanity and I are creating for ourselves, the rules work a little differently when it comes to getting green paper.

1) you have to realize what money really is and

2) focus on making THAT, not the papers.


Because money is not paper; that's just what we're doing with it now.

So what is money then?

Money is an exchange, a relationship, that's all. It's an ability to 'do what you need to do when you need to do it' to quote one of my fave teachers, Bashar, but he calls it abundance.

Money is more an idea, a feeling than physical.

When you get up in the morning and feel really good, don't you feel like the world is at your fingertips, or at least that you have access to more possibilities? You feel relaxed, more open 'giving and receiving'? Well, that's money.

If you doubt me, ever heard someone say "I feel like a million dollars?" Yup. Even in that old saying real knowledge is hidden.

That good feeling you have leads you to make different choices in your behavior, doesn't it? You walk with more confidence, you talk to people you've never talked to before, you learn things about them you've never known feel exhilarated--at least, you feel joyful and content.

Those new things you were inspired to do and say may create new relationships, or lead to new opportunities. Or these relationships may be a door to new opportunities.

These opportunities may lead to still more opportunities that make you feel more joyful and ecstatic until you find a money-making opportunity!

Now I'm not saying this is guaranteed to happen, but if you understand how energy works, especially the energy of the heart, you can dig where I'm coming from.

The heart energy is the center of your being. Touch this center, and you begin to discover that YOU are the Source of your life (or you can call it God). This Source inside is what gives rise to the world--that is, even those papers most call 'money'.

This means that who you are is the creator of money as most humans know it. Thus, money is part of the Divine creation. When you touch the Source you cease to be paper money's slave and begin to become its Master.

Once you touch the Source, you begin to attract people places and things into your experience that prime you to attract mire money. You create relationships with these nouns, which function as silent place holders for the manifestation of money in your life. The more you nurture those relationships that Source has blessed you with, the more the Source within you Glows, making you more joyful and ecstatic about life.

Your joy and Divine ecstasy eventually are reflected in your experience as paper dollars, giving you the ability to take care of yourself financially.

So what is money? It is a living relationship with the Source within, and a living relationship with people, places, and things without. Excuse me--it is a POSITIVE Living relationship with the aforementioned. Therefore, if you are a conscious spiritual being, you must understand that cultivation of these two relationships is paramount to getting money in a Divine way. I dunno, maybe your way is different. By any means, this may be something that can help you understand the inner workings of money.


G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic        


I used to hate being a Cancer.

I got started in Astrology in 2003, when a gorgeous and unsurprisingly flirtatious Gemini dropped some esoteric beauty on me. Ever since then I was hooked.

But I couldn't shake the feeling of being this emotional blobmess that I was. I pored over hundreds, possibly even thousands of books on Astrology, where virtually every description of the Crab was something to the effect of--"uh-oh, watch out for the moody Cancer!" That was depressing. Also taking into account that I was quite eccentric (I have rising Aquarius) and wasn't doing too hot in my relationships, I turned those descriptions onto myself--I was going to do everything in my power to NOT be a Cancer.

So I, over the years, muted my emotional self (which wasn't too difficult having a Virgo Moon); I held back my anger and tears. I held my tongue. I kept silent--but little did I know how I was slowly killing myself and my own life force.

It has only been in the past year that I've come to remember the power of my own emotional self. Little by little I peel back the layers of programming and pain. Little by little I remember my spontaneous Cancerian nature.

I used to dance.

I used to work at Wal-Mart over ten years ago. There were times I would be so happy, I would dance through the aisles, up and down the store. It wasn't until I heard rumors that I was homosexual that I stopped. I know there is nothing wrong with homosexuality, but, still, programming (plus I had a really hot girlfriend at the time)!

There were times, many years later, where I would wonder why I couldn't dance like that again.

I tried everything not to be as feminine as I was.

I was a boulder of a man. No more bubbling bliss, no more life giving juices, no more a supreme cauldron of galaxies I was. I was an anxious enslaved slab of a being with the deadest genitals ever (I mean, they still worked great, I'm just being poetic, flow with me!).

There came a point I used to despise my emotions. They always seemed to cause so much pain to the people I loved! So I shut them all down. No more pain. No more lashing out. There.

But from that point on, then I didn't know what I felt. I couldn't be vulnerable. I couldn't trust anyone; so much pain buried.

However, one day--after the Universe hemmed me in to make a decision for my life, as she usually does--I decided to step out on myself, I decided to take a stand for my own life. I didn't know how much doing the one thing I was afraid to do for years would bring me the joy I was seeking. I began to see how amazing my emotions were. How fresh it felt to feel them! To cry, to be angry, to be joyful, to DANCE again! To be a CRAB!!!

I also completely accepted my 'moody' nature. I observed that my 'mood' shifted several times a day, yet I wasn't out of control; I knew how to observe and not just react to everything. Upon further investigation, I began to realize that all these moods weren't always mine! (We Cancers are psychic, remember)

I accepted that this ability to feel and sense multiple energies a day is a gift, but I couldn't do it alone. I had to develop a relationship with God. When anything gets overwhelming, I just give it all to him.

(BTW, don't get hung up on the genders I'm giving to non gender beings, okay?)

I started Loving everything about me, and knowing that I'm the only person who can Love me the way I do, became an empowering thing...the nurturing side of me began to emerge, the side of me that sees the whole world as its children, and its breasts are full of Love and milk for them. Yes, even though I am a man, I sometimes see myself as a mother (Cancer rules motherly nature).

But I am more than a mother--I am the child, both sensitive and playful, both alone and loved, the one who feels 13 different feelings at once, doesn't need anyone to understand, and takes it in stride. It helps if someone does understand though.


G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

P.S. I understand that the qualities that are assigned to Cancer don't only manifest in this sign. I'm merely documenting my experience. If you're a Sagittarius and you feel me, hey, it's cool (but you probably have moon or rising Cancer or something *hee hee*)


Friday, January 24, 2014

My opinion of 'Her'

I really liked 'Her'. Phoenix really played a good character. When you really got to see him open up, you found he was highly articulate and aware of his own feelings. #SpikeJonze really wrote a badass script. I was totally lost in the movie, the acting was so blessed good. Powerful message at the end about Love--that the Heart isn't just a container that gets filled; it is something that expands proportionately to how much Love it receives. When Love expands our hearts, even if we cannot share life with each other in the physical, even if we move on, we do not Love each other less, only more--for the truth is--my addition--we are all connected, and we never really apart.

I am learning to see relationship as serving to expand my heart only, not to possess physical bodies. That is why Love does not and cannot possess. No matter how your relationships are, if you can really look and see how they have expanded your heart, they have done their job. G.A.B.E. aka Excelsior Joymagic

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

My Current Awakening!

I used to write off energies or experiences that I thought would make me spiritually impure (goddang Moon in Virgo). But a series of recent experiences showed me that if I hadn't gone through those experiences, I wouldn't be mad e strong for the next challenge. I never full understood the value of experience in my life until that point, until I decided to Love myself. My whole life, for my delicate Moon Child Consciousness, was one psychological trauma after another, so I wasn't even afforded the privilege of valuing my experiences. I wasn't taught to Love myself, just the opposite.

I'm sure most of you can vibe with what I'm saying. My point for sharing all this is that one's traumas can keep on in a state of protectiveness, even from necessary experiences through which we can integrate our challenges and become a new version of ourselves that is ready for the next challenge.

I didn't know how to value challenge. The cloud of repressed psychological traumas makes you flee from the slightest sensing of it. It was only when a good friend showed me a very strong kind of Love that I did begin to believe new things were possible. I imbibed his lesson and began to do it for myself. All of a sudden, I began to have perspective on my life I've never had before. I saw my inner value. I saw that I wanted to share this value. I saw all the traumas I had been through as necessary for integration. I saw the integration as necessary for the next integration to get me closer to be the BEST VERSION OF MYSELF I could be--and that's an ever evolving thing.

I began to become more comfortable with the idea of evolution as a flowing process, and that I am at its mercy. I learned that being at its mercy isn't a bad thing, as long as you trust in God. And finally, I learned to not give a **** about the process at all, because I don't own it, and it doesn't own me. It's just a happening that I'm experiencing as an individual consciousness. Just Love Love Love Love choose to Love, because it is my very Being. I am a bubbling cauldron of blissgasm, from beyond the field where Universes are born. I am that I am, and I am never made impure, but to the consciousness of duality. I am always pure consciousness, untainted by life, because life comes from ME. And I do my Sadhana to keep my memory. I love you all, G.A.B.E. aka Excelsior Joymagic