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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Whose Karma Is It?

It doesn't come from you, but you can take responsibility for it. Where does it come from? G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Gloss, Chapter 1

I just felt inspired to begin writing something random, what do you think?

On the planet Frisklon, home of the warrior Clowns, Gloss's clan is destroyed by the Golem of Mareeawn. Left with nothing but his rage, he embarks upon a journey of revenge...

Gloss opened his eyes, and saw nothing. He only felt the viscous blood that filled them. He painfully shut them again. Then he heard a vocalized gasp, which he realized was his own by the vibrations of his throat.

He dare not move. He kept his breath extremely shallow, so as not to alert any possible Golem around that he may be alive. He knew bodies must be around him--blending in was his best chance of survival.

Simultaneously, he listened for the voices of his enemy, or any friends, scout the territory. Nothing but the din of distant explosions and fire crackling from dying torches.

He heard soft moans of the approach of death scattered about him; he recognized some of the voices, as muffled as they were--his kin. His brothers, dying.

Gloss reasoned it would do him no good to remain fastened to the dirt. Moving as slowly as possible, Gloss started to shift his body across the ground to make for an ideal position to rise to standing. He heard no one approach while he was doing this, but still only made a few inches movement every few minutes or so to his final position, which took nearly an hour.

After using his dusty,blood-matted orange hair to wipe the now drying blood from his eyes, Gloss listened again for voices or any approach. Nothing. Gloss got into a squatting position and began crouch-walking. He didn't know where he was going, and his eyes darted around to look for any landmarks or places to hide.

The field was open and wide, naked; Gloss movement was entirely obvious. Fortunately, the gods were on his side, for no Golem saw him or discharged a weapon at him. They must have moved on to the South, which was where the explosions still sounded, kilometers behind him.

Everything in his brothertown was destroyed. The homes, the shops--the temple on the mount, which he could see nearly a kilometer to the Northwest. There had to be someplace he could hide and recover.

Gloss made it to the end of the field, and the edge of the Mim Forest, where his emotions were soothed by ambient sounds of wind through trees and bird sounds. Voices several hundred feet away tensed him again. He found a giant collection of bushes and quickly hid himself amongst its branches and thorns, pricking himself several times but fairly sure he was well hidden.

Damn, if only he had a weapon. In his contorted position in the bushes he patted his body, feeling for any concealed arms. Only a small blade in the pocket of his torn breastplate. Enough for now; enough to grab a larger weapon--he pulled it out and clutched it tightly. Shallowing his breath again, he watched two Golem carrying large staffs emerge from the brush tens of meters away.

Gloss suffocated the hilt of the blade in silent anticipation, partially hoping the two beings would pass him unawares, partially hoping they would come closer to his position so he could exactly his revenge. They passed. Gloss waited there for several minutes, simmering from the intense rage he felt at merely seeing the two Golem. They had--he groaned--a sharp pain in his side! He felt it--a deep wound, he hadn't noticed it before. Suddenly the warrior felt tired, and fell asleep.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Are You My Friend?

You cannot repeatedly engage in self destructive behavior and call yourself my friend. Friends best serve each other by healing themselves. 

If a person that considers themselves a friend of mine continues to do things that damage themselves, instead of transforming their insecurities into moments of self-healing, I will not be there for you. I have learned to transform many of my own insecurities ALONE, and truly, this is a supreme way to live life. That is not to say I never need help, but as the saying goes, "God helps those who help themselves."

I will not be there for an addict, an insecurity junkie, not because I am cold and vicious, but because my presence will not serve you. Only undergoing withdrawal alone without the constant drug of needing others to hold your hand ALL THE TIME will rid you of your demons. The only thing that will truly serve you is my absence.

I'm not perfect, I masturbate too much, eat too much, and run away from things that are challenging. However I do not require enablers, people that allow me to continue these things, or those that don't know how to read energy, being overly sentimental (or even judgmental) when I go through a time of crisis. The wise ones know that crises are merely expansions of consciousness with intense resistance involved.

This doesn't mean there aren't hugs, embraces, kisses, deep eye contact, and pats on the back when one is transforming their insecurities into power. It just means that they come when it is necessary for them to be there, at the mandate of our BEING. This requires us as humans to shake off the shackles of our conditioning and know who we really are, PURE BEING, so we can know another's pure being. We call this "being psychic" in common vernacular. Psyche means "soul", which denotes essence, BEING.

So don't misunderstand my coldness if you've ever experienced it. I just want to live a happy life--that doesn't mean I'll never be sad, it just means I, as a Creative Being, an choosing to create a life that feels good. If you want to continue down a path of self-destruction, just know, I Love You, for we are One, but in the human experience, I can't fuck witcha.


G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Grow With Me

I grow exponentially fast--I'm not even the same person day to day. Those who grow with me usually are the ones who (want to) stick around. If you don't grow with me, then things were lovely while they lasted.

It's not that you have to fulfill my standards, per se, but being a sensitive person, I can't afford to be around a person who won't grow because of an outmoded idea of themselves which they wish to cling to. When a person won't grow with you, they begin to unnecessarily request energy from you that drains you and temporarily allows them to feel satisfied without doing the inner work. These people will continue to request your presence until you put your foot down and say, "No." It is tough, but necessary in order for you to be truly happy. 

Your enlightenment, your freedom from the Matrix, is more important than a relationship that may drain you of life force.

G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Tuesday, November 25, 2014


Learn how to listen with more than just your ears--be vigilant in finding ways to listen to the Universe. Don't just talk, paying no attention to what others may say. Is you talking serving the interaction, or have you gone unconscious and your mouth is moving on its own? Do you value others or what they have to say, or are they someone to word vomit on? 

Of course there are exceptions--friends can talk for hours, hogging the time to talk but neither one cares, they are having too much fun, effortless love is Present. However in other situations where this is not the case, you have to look at he big picture--is what I'm sharing benefitting both of us? Not simply the words you're saying, but the state of consciousness you're in when you're saying them. Are you listening, or merely shutting down and hearing mumbling in the background of your own thoughts about what you are going to say next? Are you talking merely to fill up 'awkward' silence, or avoid that intimacy? Ask yourself these things.

Many people practice listening from the ego. One way that I am talking about is out of a sense of guilt. Feeling guilt for speaking too much is still focus on a small, outmoded set of beliefs about who you are and does not apply to this moment. Authentic listening happens when you cast off those beliefs and listen with your heart, to the other's heart. 

A way you can develop the ability to listen is to truly listen to your own heart. What do you desire from life, on the deepest level, and what will it take to get there? You cannot know these things without listening to your heart. Furthermore, listening to your own heart should expand into listening to other's Hearts, for the language of the Heart truly is Universal. Develop your mind by ignoring all its reasons for why it can't or shouldn't listen. Practice with your heart and body, they will communicate and receive the Universal language. 

G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Saturday, November 22, 2014

The Goal of Communication Is Not Understanding

One thing I realize about communication is that everyone has their won way of interpreting what is communicated. What is beautiful is when two beings misunderstand each other but are both happy from it. Like a baby and its parent. The baby may do something that makes it happy for its own reasons, yet it still makes the parent happy as well, and they may laugh. Sometimes babies laugh together with their parents, for totally different reasons, yet they are sharing this moment in laughter. Communication doesn't always mean that we understand each other 100%. It means that we are building an influence each time we interact. So, if it's not that important, let other beings misunderstand you, and may it lead to all parties involved being happy. Check out this video of a dog trying to teach a baby to jump and you'll see what I mean:

G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Diet Security

Ya damn straight I'm uppity when it comes to my diet--I have clearer mind, healthier body, and a greater sense of wellbeing because of it. Somehow, though, people who don't have my diet tend to take offense as of I were directly pointing them out, then proceed to bash or try to insult through a series of questions to find a flaw in what I do. My thing is, if you are truly secure with your diet, you wouldn't have to defend it. The way you feel in your body should be more than enough proof. Excelsior, G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Sunday, October 19, 2014

We Must Hold Each Other Accountable

The Source Video is below:

Sunday, October 5, 2014

The Illusion of #Television

Here's a few words on the beliefs system around television. Excelsior, G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

Monday, September 22, 2014

Exposing the Struggles of 'minorities' to Bring Awareness and Balance to Society

I don't give a damn about what 'race' you are. Race is a farce, a man-made creation to further manipulate and control sleeping humans. I talk about Black History because if you don't understand your History, you are ignorant to the things that make humanity stupid, and that make humanity GREAT.

We're not taught the real history of the world, which is, if you go back far enough, 'Black'.

The majority of the world is made up of brown to black skinned people (yes there are some that are literally black-skinned); a small minority has pale skin.

This is not to claim superiority AT ALL. It's just a fact.

I don't give a damn about gender. Gender is another silly game to get humans fighting while the controllers keep herding you into the slaughterhouse. I support certain forms of feminism, because, it's important to have that awareness of the feminine energy.

Even though I support the apocalypse of true Black History and Feminist thought, they are not the end of the road. Why? Because the world is not supposed to fellate Blacks and Women just because their blacks and women, only to have true Heart Awareness and respect for these two groups.

The reason for the last paragraph is because I think both groups can take their 'movements' out of proportion sometimes. There is a danger in that kind of thinking, a subtle tyranny that begins to play out, where both of these groups, in not healing themselves, fail to see the entire picture that it is not only their groups that are being disrespected an abused, IT IS EVERYONE. They don't see that ALL PEOPLE ARE ONE, and their wounds distort true vision, leading them to read into many situations with too much 'movement'-type fervor. Their wounds also create a mental bulwark which blocks integrating information from coming into their energy field--this, is created from fear and dualistic thinking.

I apocalyze Black History and Feminist Thought because the intention is to share information TO CREATE BALANCE. They say this era we are shifting into is a return of the feminine. It is not; we've already lived through that era.  This coming era is the BALANCE and FULL INTEGRATED MANIFESTATION OF BOTH MASCULINE AND FEMININE ENERGIES TO CREATE HARMONY AND PEACEFUL RELATIONS.

Balance must be created in all areas. Just because Blacks have been persecuted doesn't mean that they can complain all the time. Just because Women have been persecuted doesn't mean that a man can't speak up and  propose something that might help the Woman integrate knowledge. This is why these movements of Afrocentrism (for lack of better terms) and Feminism should see themselves as groups of HUMANS creating AWARENESS to in turn create global human societal BALANCE. We are humans first in this physical playground--we shouldn't denounce, demonize, or marginalize one another because of our physical or intellectual differences. Just keep BALANCE.

Saturday, September 13, 2014

A Short Blog: What is my purpose?

A Leaf has no other purpose than to be a leaf. Through its BEING/existence do the functions come. Purpose is being, and BEING is the purpose you seek. CONGRATULATIONS, you've aced the exam. Now surrender to yourself.

You don't seem to understand how powerful your mere existence is. See, you've been taught to deny it--that only by doing or having something can you validate your existence. 

This is folly, ludicrous! The irony is that, no matter what you do or don't, have or don't have, YOU STILL EXIST! 

People think they have to stress themselves out for years seeking their 'purpose'.

People think purpose is a thing you 'do'.

Nothing could be further from the truth.

Think about a tree. 

Searching for your purpose as something that you 'do' is like thinking that the leaf on the tree is the source of energy for the entire tree, when, in fact, it is the extension of the tree's energy.


So what are the roots of you?


If you can STOP searching for the answer, sit still, and be okay with just being alive--and sit with that feeling in your heart, in your body, no matter what happens--you will find life begin to reveal something very profound to you.

What is that?

That your very BEING is your PURPOSE.

Sounds silly, I know, but think about this:

Since you already exist, 


In other words, by acknowledging your very BEING through the ability to sit still and be content with the life you are living, life, EXISTENCE itself, which you are, will begin to reveal a 'purpose' to you; it will reveal a 'thing that you do'.

When you settle into a space of gratitude, and focus on the positive in life, you settle into your BEING. No matter how your life has been, YOU ARE ALIVE, YOU EXIST, AND THAT MUST BE FOR A REASON.

Because you exist, you must already be validated.

Because you exist, you already matter.

Loving that you exist begins to draw better and better things to you;


So stop 'searching' for your 'thing to do' and realize that it has already been found--YOU EXIST.

Now surrender to being grateful that you exist, and surrender to the blessings that are coming.


Monday, September 8, 2014

Knowledge Creates Equality (Know Your History)

The next time you think a black person that attempts to tell you just how black-influenced history truly is, is focused on separation and prejudice, first, carefully listen to their words. Second, you might want to double back on your own thoughts--you might prejudging where the person is coming from as opposed to truly listening and having compassion.

Most of us have been programmed to tune out or dismiss the black person who announces a version of history contrary to what you were taught in school. However, not all black people know what they're talking about, because black people are human beings, and most human beings don't really know what they're talking about much of the time. But don't let your programming get the best of you.

Other 'races' presented in western society are praised or left alone for knowing their history--but black people are told to 'get over it' or that they themselves are prejudiced and promoting fear and separation, but I say what Lucy said "Ignorance creates chaos, not knowledge". The 'get over it' and accusations of promoting separation and being a fear-monger are taken especially by the spiritual community without a sense of perspective or compassion for the plight of people who are taught that they are less valuable simply because they were born with brown/black skin. The truth of the matter is, much of the knowledge of true history will reveal more brown/black skin than we've been told, and this in turn, would give humanity a chance to have real perspective about itself, and the path to true equality might be more likely.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

HOW TO START A RAW VEGAN LYFESTILE - A guide on a journey to higher awareness

Here is an excerpt from my new e-book, HOW TO START A RAW VEGAN LYFESTILE, soon to be released for FREE online.

If you want to make a change in your life, you have to really want it. No one can want or do the work for you.

This is intimidating to many people; understandable if you’re looking at transition as this giant mountain of achievement--but it’s liberating when you are able to visualize the result you truly want.

More energy? Better Health? Moral reasoning? Greater enjoyment of life? These are some reasons that people have to change over to a raw vegan lyfestile.

When people hear that I am Raw Vegan, they look at me amazed. “Wow, good for you” they say, as their tonality betrays that they don’t think they could ever do what I am doing. They’re right--they can’t do exactly what I’m doing, but they can become a Raw Vegan, and find their own expression of it, once they master the stile.

Many people are afraid of the Raw Vegan Lyfestile, claiming that it is a denial of the necessary nutrients the body needs to survive. However, the contrary is true; if you know how to live the lyfestile, you actually get exponentially MORE benefit from the foods you eat than in a primarily meat of cooked/processed food diet (No disrespect to those who eat those kinds of diets, by the way).

You see, when food is cooked and processed, it actually drains the food of its nutrients, proteins, vitamins, and enzymes. This makes food harder to digest, and in many ways can make it a slow poisoner of the body, leading to eventual cancer and even death.

Though cancer and death is not always the case, lower energy levels certainly are. Cooked and processed food does not actually give much energy to the body--it leeches energy from the body. With all the healthy stuff cooked or processed out of the original food (if it’s really food at all, much of it is synthetic), it gives very little good stuff for the body to break down and use for its cellular and tissue properties.

The body uses energy to digest food. If the food you put in has less energy than it takes your body to digest it, you have lost energy. It’s just like corporations, always talking about their profits and their losses. Your body is a corporation. In fact, the word ‘corporation’ is derived from the Latin word ‘corpus’ meaning ‘body’.

When you eat food that has more energy than the body uses to digest it, you have gained energy. I want to draw your attention to something:

When people eat, most are not aware that what they eat literally becomes their physical makeup at the atomic and cellular level. What you eat is converted into energy the body can use to create more cells, to sustain your physical life. When you eat food with little nutrients, or poisonous food, you are essentially creating poisonous cells, and what is another name for a poisonous cell? A cancer cell.

This book details my experience in how I became a Raw Vegan Lyfestiler, and the insights I gained from the process. I was lucky--I got a lot of breaks and help, but even if you don’t have what I had, you can still do it! That’s what this book is for.


G.A.B.E. aka Kimya

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Wednesday, September 3, 2014

A Reflection on 9/11, David Icke, and Top-Down Corruption

I remember when 9/11 happened, I had been reading David Icke's "The Biggest Secret" intensely around that time. For anyone that is familiar with David Icke, I always called his information "Awakening 101".

I was in my junior year of high school, and an announcement was made school wide on the intercom. I didn't really grasp the physical and psychological depth of what had happened until I got home and saw on the television. After reading Icke's book, where he describes in detail the level of merciless sadistic manipulation of the people, I still asked myself, "Is this 'them'? Did the 'powers that be' that David discusses in his book, do this?

Before seeing the footage of the plane hitting the south tower, nearly every event I had read about in David Icke's book had happened before I was born, or old enough to comprehend the scope of manipulation. I knew about Princess Diana's death, in 1997, but this, this was happening right before my eyes. This was alive, and growling. It had also happened a few weeks after Aaliyah's death, of which the press completely forgot; Aaliyah was swept right under the table.

Putting the puzzle pieces together mentally, things did smell fishy. Back then, I didn't think for myself as much as I do today--Icke was my guide, my barometer of corruption and consciousness expansion, so I waited until he came out with another book "Alice in Wonderland and The World Trade Center Disaster" to confirm that the atrocities of September 11th really were the Hidden Hand, the work of these thirteen families, the Illuminati (or whatever you want to call them) in some form or other.

I believed David Icke because of the depth of research in the book--bloke's quite thorough--and everything I read from him felt right, especially with regards to his discussion of consciousness. He usually ended every book with emphasizing the importance of Unconditional Love--having it for eveyone, even for those who manipulate the people's minds with evil intent. That's how I knew the book was complete. Love for all, even evil ones, completes knowledge.

I don't remember where I was going with this, but I hope it has been an enjoyable read.

Make A Friend of Boredom

It's hard being around those who constantly need stimulation, and have little patience. Trust me, I am/have been that person. 

Boredom is the denial of the deeper you. In many cases it is the refusal to dive deeper into yourself and fully accept the present moment. 

We do anything to fill up the void of our supposed boredom--food, sex, TV, Internet, a night on the town, etc. these things aren't inherently bad, but they are frequently used as escapes from the silent present space that is erringly perceived as 'boredom'.

Boredom is silence. It's a way of knowing that you may need to slow down, breathe, and train yourself to fully appreciate this moment.

The entire Universe, which is within you, is made up of ecstatic creation, a bubbling cauldron of ecstasy. To be bored of it, is to not see the true reality of your experience.

But there's nothing wrong with being bored. In fact, the reason people run from boredom is because they believe something is wrong with it--it's uncomfortable, this dull stillness, and they want to be active, to vibrate, so they search quickly for something 'interesting' even if it's not really interesting; anything to avoid being bored.

The only 'wrong' thing you can do is to run away from boredom. Remember, all of Creation Is Ecstatic in Nature, and thus includes boredom. This means that, when it appears in your experience, give yourself five minutes to sit there and listen to it, to feel it, before you run off to the next thing. Practice making a friend of boredom, and, ironically, as a result of this practice, you'll find within yourself a greater capacity to enjoy life more.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014


Love is Knowledge.

I've learned to Love my bullshit, the 'negativity' that I've come from in order to be here.

It can be hard not to compare yourself to others' seemingly confident veneer, but that's just what it is, a veneer. The practice is to completely focus on your own process. That's why I Love my bullshit.

True Love is Knowledge. Knowledge is Awareness, is Consciousness. True Love dissolves all ignorance. True Love is Self-Knowledge, which brings perspective, and Light to your process, and transforms your crap into Gold.

Most people I know understand this to be the Alchemical process.

I am coming into a space where I am seeing how full of shit I am, but I have Perspective, so there is Real Love, Real Self-Knowledge.

I find that when I talk to people sometimes, they seem to be so sure of who they are and I look at myself, my insides rattling around like marbles in a washing machine. However, when I shift my focus from comparison to isolating my personal process in my mind, Love emerges and flows effortlessly.

I've tried to hide my insecurities in the presence of others. Why? Because I've told myself the story that, what they think about me is more important than what I think about me. The irony is that I'm the one that originated the thought which gives 'others' power! So I've had the power all along!

Sometimes anxiety comes up during conversations with others, out of fear of abandonment. The slow-cure (meaning patience is required) for this one is to be non-attached to whether a person sticks around or not. If the world reflects you, then it reflects what you believe about yourself. If you are 100% honest with yourself, you will allow those that drift in and out of your life to do so without complaint--still working on that one, though.

Another irony is that, if you open yourself up to be totally nude in front of the right people, having a "Here-is-everything-even-my-faults-I-don't-care-whether-you-like-it-or-not-you-can-stay-or-leave" attitude, many people tend to be intrigued by that (not that you have that attitude for others' intrigue).

Within that attitude is the intention to integrate more knowledge, so those 'faults' line up with the flow of life, thus creating and supporting harmony.

Loving your journey, bumps and all is part of what is called Unconditional Self-Love. Who are you when everyone's gone and the lights are out? Do you know that 'you'? Are you comfortable with that 'you'? When something happens that doesn't put you in the best light, are you present in Love even then?

Self-Love is more valuable than any book. Self-Knowledge is the only true knowledge by which you know everything else. Love everything about you, forget what others think, and watch your entire life become Gold.

Love is Knowledge. Love yourself completely and Know Everything.


Monday, August 4, 2014


I've been asked why I don't hang out with anyone, or why I ignore people sometimes. Because I am passionate, I am fully realized power. Can you handle that? If you can't, that's why.

People think there's something wrong with me in the presence of strong emotion, but I'm really just supremely present and passionate. There are very few people that can handle that level of Love for Life. I used to believe what people thought of me when I did express my passion--that I was too emotional, or making a big deal out of everything. What I said and felt may or may not have been motivated from the right perspective, but the real mistake I made was to shun myself, because those who couldn't understand what I was going though looked at me like I had lost my mind. However, for most of my life, even in the midst of my anger and passion I am present. There is a distinct logic to my actions and emotions which many people cannot understand, because they operate on a different logic. Most people avoid confrontation, it makes them EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE. As long as everyone is present, anger can be beautiful and serve a legitimate purpose. As long as we understand that sharing our emotions and fears are workshops--spaces of consciousness development, instead of unfortunate incidences, we can begin to REALLY grow. Anger does not require violence. Passion shouldn't be so threatening.

To expand this topic, look at a man like Steve Jobs. If Ashton Kutcher's portrayal in the movie 'Jobs' is accurate, then a passionate, emotional nerd genius created YOUR iPhone, or at least was the Creative Director of this amazing piece of technology.

To digress, it's amazing to me that the passionate people are not uplifted by humanity--they're usually the most fun, the most innovative, the most creative, and the most inspiring people our planet has to offer. Without passionate people, we would have no buildings with elaborate architecture and structure. Without passionate people, we would have no Beyonce, (whether you like her or not, or just think of your favorite musician!). Without passionate people, we would have no Christopher Nolan--no revival of the Batman franchise, (or no Marvel, no Avengers, no Star Wars VII coming up). Without passionate people we wouldn't have gone to the moon. Without passionate people we wouldn't have any kind of spiritual guidance toward greater understanding from anyone. If the world had to rely on the layman, we wouldn't have done anything, and maybe that would have been alright, but I don't really think so.

Think about a passionate person next time you turn on a computer, or open a book, or watch a movie. Think about a passionate person when you listen to a great song that you feel a deep connection with. Kurt Cobain killed himself because he was passionate! I know that's hard to believe, but passionate people are dramatic, too! How do you think he was such a genius? By studying hard for math problems in school, or hangin' out with friends? No! He was extremely engaged, present, and passionate with his music! His expression may have been different than others, but the fire is the same! (Btw, I'm not saying he didn't have friends, or didn't study in school--I don't know what his either experience was like)

What do you go to a concert for? To see a musician act like you do on your most bored day? No! You want them to bring that energy! So why don't YOU bring it?!?

No, everything is not a nuclear bomb about to go off in nine seconds, but that is how it can feel to a passionate person. I think the only major lesson people like me need to learn is patience. The fire is strong, and every moment is an opportunity to do something amazing. Why bullshit on it? Bring your Love, your passion, your fight, your everything! Still everyone is not on the same page with you, and that can be frustrating. It's not a put-down to them, but frustration is an honest experience when dealing with those you don't feel are on the same page.

There were a series of events that prompted this message, and I was inspired to write this.

Sunday, August 3, 2014


From All credit to those geniuses over there.

Now that that has been said, I received this email today, another confirmation from the universe for me, and, hopefully, for you.

Posted: 02 Aug 2014 06:00 AM PDT
If you can become a lion in a world that is dominated by sheep, you will WIN. No doubt about it. Lion’s have dominant characteristics that make them fit for success. Whereas sheep bow down, lion’s rise above and conquer all there is to conquer.
Therefore, below are the three characteristics that make a lion, a lion in this day and age.

1. Have no filter

Speak your mind. Be as blunt as possible. Don’t sugar coat anything. Sugar coating is only for mediocre minds that go out of their way to avoid conflict.
Sheep avoid conflict.
Sheep avoid stepping on toes and that is why they never reach where they desire to go.
On this road you’re going to have to make a few enemies, it’s going to happen regardless of whether you want it to or not.
Therefore, don’t be afraid.
Say what you feel.
This goes both ways.
It doesn’t just mean that you should be a complete dick. It means you should speak to existence all the love, passion, and excitement you feel as well.
Stop judging your thoughts and start SHARING.
Experience yourself fully and do away with the filter that society has pressed upon you.

2. When you set your mind to something, ATTACK ATTACK ATTACK

When lions spot their prey, they attack.
They don’t think about it.
They don’t stress about it.
They don’t weigh the pros and cons.
They just attack.
Aggression is the name of the game; you have to move with aggression.
You have to make bold moves.
So many people pussyfoot around what needs to be done. They just keep playing it safe. They don’t put themselves out there and that is why they don’t succeed.
We humans spend a lot of time in our head instead of actually doing what it is we need to be doing.
Therefore stop thinking about it and just start doing.

3. Be willing to be different

If you want to be a lion in a world that is consumed with sheep, you have to be willing to stick out like a sore thumb.
You have to be willing to be scrutinized, hated, and shunned by the sheep.
Sheep are not fit to understand the intentions of a lion so when you tell the world what you want to achieve, they will laugh, they will ridicule, and they will mock.
However, you have to continue to press on.
You can’t let the sheep kill the lion within you.
It’s going to be a lonely road that you must be willing to travel alone.
Continue down your own path and never stop.
Keep pushing it to the limit.
No matter how badly you feel like giving up and joining the sheep, press on because one day you will live the life of a true lion, a life that the sheep cannot even fathom let alone reach.
It’s not going to be easy, but it’s going to be worth it.
Your reward for being a lion is success, massive success.
So continue to achieve, continue to do, continue to create and most importantly, continue to be…a lion.



Sunday, June 29, 2014

"I Don't Curse"? Pshaw.

Some people say, "I don't curse." Well, for one I don't curse either, I emphasize with fucking cool words and two, if you think speak or act with negative intention, you actually do curse, and that worse than any of the "words you can't say on television".

It's not the words you say it's always the intention behind them. If you give a person a beautiful gift, but you are thinking about how much you hate them, your energy is moving out to curse them, your energy is attacking them with negativity, and actually helping to keep their spiritual growth stagnant. These thoughts are also doing the same to YOU.

We humans sometimes take our inner processes for granted. We feel very uncomfortable with what we consider to be 'curse words, and we tend to reject or distance ourselves from those things. But the truth is, through our own thoughts we have created the 'taboo-ness' of curse words. We are the ones thinking the thought of 'forbidden'.

Most humans believe that 'out there' is a reality with an intrinsic existence regardless of their presence--not so. Quantum Mechanics tells us otherwise. QM tells us that we affect and alter our milieu simply by observing it. The one looking has the power, not the things being looked at. The observer (WE)  is the intrinsic reality, not the world 'out there'.

If you've ever heard the saying "wherever you go, there you are" it aligns with the message of this entry. What's the common denominator of every experience you are in? YOU! You are observing all you experiences. Thus means that whatever judgment you have about, or intention you have toward any aspect of your experience, shows how you have chosen to observe it. I say 'chosen' because the observer is the intrinsic reality, remember? Each thought and intention you have colors your experience, not the other way around. Thusly,the only way you could truly be coming to judgments about the experience is through naked choice, dependent on no circumstance. Of course it does not appear this way, but, to reiterate, it is.

So back to the 'curse words'. I use words like fuck and shit, and I believe that these words add a unique emphasis to whatever it is that I am saying. People might berate me for that. However, I've known people who have never uttered a 'curse word' and they spew more venomous 'curses' (aka negative words and intentions) or others than people I've known who use thevforbidden words people hate so much. Could it be that, as observers, curse words became that way because we have cursed them? Might we prefer to change how we really curse ourselves and each other instead of complaining about some words that we have collectively cursed? These are some interesting questions that require us to think differently about the nature of our daily reality, and to start transforming our thoughts, words, and behaviors to BLESS ourselves and others, instead or cursing. Then I believe we can make real changes, instead of complaining about things we don't understand how we've contributed to their negative effects.

Peace and NO GREASE (because that's nasty),

G.A.B.E aka
Excelsior Joymagick

Saturday, June 7, 2014


I will never demonize religion. Make fun of its staggering ability to take itself too seriously, yes. Demonize it? No. I believe that the Universe helps us learn no matter what the medium. Wisdom is wisdom.

 I used to be Christian. I used to be Jewish. Both had their high points. After I had seen the evidence that my spirit was bigger than any religion, I no longer subscribed to them. 

However, seven years ago, I went through one of the darkest periods of my life. My being was vomiting out A LOT OF BS, and I had very little hope in myself. One night, very late, I couldn't sleep, so I turned on the television. I flipped through the channels, and came across one that featured Joel Osteen, a Christian preacher, speaking on hope and faith. At first I was about to change the channel--I'm not Christian, I thought to myself--but I was drawn in, and the message was so powerful, it eventually brought me to tears.

Listen, I could talk about the corruption behind any major figure in the world (trust me, they've all got some), but at that moment, I was shown that sometimes, beliefs don't matter. What matters is that you walk away with what's important for you to grow.

This is what the leaders and participants of organized religions, if they haven't already, need to learn.  Once all religions realize that they're all part of a prism that looks at the same Creator, but interprets this Creator through different perspectives, we can share an unprecedented level of peace that our society has known (at least in the last few millenia).




G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

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Monday, June 2, 2014

TITTIES: This blog isn't what you think

I'm of a mind that we demonize words too much. For example, if I use the word 'tittie' in my post, especially in appreciation of a woman's breasts, I'm sure there would be a lot of people who create negative realities in their field, and attempt to, in the reality they consider true, to project that onto me. But it seems, that men are attracted to tits for a reason...I'm thinking it might be evolutionary lol. But there is a Sumerian word, TIIT, which means "That which is life". Sumer is the oldest known civilization of this societal era, which means that much of the culture we have today is more or less rooted in Sumerian ways. I say more or less because Sumer is a branch of even older cultures and civilizations of even more ancient eras.

Anyway, back to the point. I think the word TIIT is where the words 'tit(s)' and 'tittie(s)' come from. I remember when I first learned of this ancient word in a David Icke book, and said to myself, "how fitting that we call them tits!" Do they not give and nourish life to young developing humans?

To sum up, TITs are life!


G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic


Saturday, May 31, 2014

Judiciary Chief Sadeq Larijani: Stop My Son’s Execution

I got this in an email. Please read and sign!

Judiciary Chief Sadeq Larijani: Stop My Son’s Execution

My Son Shahram Ahmadi has been sentenced to death. His case will be reviewed by the Supreme Court in the upcoming weeks. He is 26 years old and has spent the last 6 years of his life in prison. I couldn’t stop the execution of his younger brother Bahram and had a heart attack when I heard the news. The Iranian government refuses to hand over Bahram’s body. Now I need your help to stop Shahram’s execution.


Bahram, on the right in the picture above, has been executed and Shahram, on the left, can be saved. 
We are Sunni and Kurd. My son Shahram like many other Sunni youths has been critical of how badly the Iranian government treats the Sunni minority. Security police arrested him in April 2009 on his way home from mosque in our town, Sanandaj. They shot, beat, and kicked my son in the face, breaking his nose and head. They took him to the Intelligence Bureau of Sanandaj and subjected him to severe torture including electric shocks and forced him to falsely confess to armed resistance. It took the authorities 10 months before they allowed us to see him.
My son's trial was unfair. The authorities kept him in detention for 4 years before charging him. The first time they allowed him to talk to his attorney was on the day of his trial. His trial lasted less than 10 minutes. Judge Mohammad Moghiseh used his coerced confession, the only evidence against him, to declare him a mohareb (enemy of God). I have no doubt that my son would have been found innocent if he had received a fair trial.
Your support could save my son. In the past international pressure has been instrumental in protecting individuals who had been unfairly prosecuted in Iran. A recent example is Sakineh Mohammadi Ashtiani who in 2006 was sentenced to stoning. Due to international pressure her sentence was later reduced to 10 years in prison and in March of this year, the Iranian judiciary announced that she has been released.
Shahram is not the only one at risk. Dozens of other Kurds have been unfairly sentenced to death. Most of their cases are waiting review by the Supreme Court. We do not have much time. Please help me save my son and the other Kurds' lives by asking Iranian officials to halt their executions and grant them fair trials.


Friday, May 30, 2014

The Dark Knight and me in's not what you think

When I first saw 'The Dark Knight' in 2008, I was haunted by Heath Ledger's performance. I don't know or care whether you believe this, but many of the best actors in hollywood invoke spirits for their performance, many of them knowingly invoke what most of us know as 'demons'.

A demon is what I felt in Heath's performance when I saw it. The evil was so strong, I could barely handle it. I did some esoteric research afterward, and I found out the invocation secret that most actors do. Not all of them are evil, of course, many of us think of our 'power animal' or our ancestors to give us strength during tough times. However, Heath was another matter.

If you look at some of the most famous figures of the 20th century, you find that they were nobodies in their craft, then suddenly changed their style and became insanely famous--they also died very tragic deaths.

It is my belief that, these celebrities willingly allow their bodies to be influenced by demon forces--bear with me here. These forces eventually drive them insane, and they take a lot of drugs to lessen the influence in their consciousness. Unfortunately, because these celebrities are not self-empowered, the influences get so strong, that the only way to block them out is to overdose on drugs. This is the ubiquitous 'death-by-drugs' event that you hear many celebrities succumb to (Of course a lot of them are also murdered, but that's a different story).

I also saw a pretty chilling video of an intoxicated Jack Nicholson, who played the Joker in 1989's 'Batman' and was interviewed briefly after strolling out of a restaurant or something. They interviewer asked him what he thought about Heath's death, to which Nicholson answered "I warned him." What?!? This was when my Spider-sense really went off regarding these invocation rituals.

Though I have no hard evidence that Heath actually invoked a demon for his performance as the Joker, it's not really a stretch to assume that hollywood folk are into some really strange shit. I can't presume to be  totally correct in my claim, but I feel that I'm at least close to the truth in my esoteric inferences.

Why am i sharing all this with you? Because, after I saw "The Dark Knight",  I saw everyone saying it was the best comic book movie of all time, and I was like "Everyone's worshiping a demon." I couldn't watch the movie in its entirety for years. (It wasn't a 'scared of the dark' thing, I would literally feel that energy everytime)

Well, I just saw the Dark Knight a few days ago, and I'm proud to say, that my inner light work made watching that movie not so intense. I was able to really zoom in on Heath's performance and appreciate it.  I was able to appreciate the entire movie for what it was. Now I see the character as truly funny, truly genius, and I don't succumb to it anymore. I have too much light for that.

Eh, me an ma blabbin'.

G.A.B.E. aka

Excelsior Joymagic

Thursday, May 29, 2014


I see so much misunderstanding between the extremes--between the feminists and the men who don't agree, between meat eaters and vegetarians/vegans, between global warming believers and non-believers, multi-sexual pride and those against etc, and everybody thinks that their cause is the one to be adopted or modern human society will be destroyed. While I agree that humanity's practices as a collective must be refined and more heart-centered, I think everyone who is on a 'side' has to learn that their viewpoint is not the only one. Learn to see that your viewpoint is for your empowerment ONLY. Anyone who vibrates with what you say can come on board. The weakness of your perspective comes in when you demonize or dehumanize the other side--it totally saps your power to a state of duality instead of Unity, and the only thing that can manifest is a fight, which is what certain interests want. As long as those interests can keep us believing that the other is inimical, they've won.

This is the real war. The war to control consciousness, to control your belief and perspective of the Universe. Control your own perspective. When you do this, you are loving yourself. When you do this, you are loving others, because when you allow yourself freedom of thought, you allow others the same--not that you are the authority over others, mind you. It simply allows for the energy of God to freely flow between beings when acceptance and allowance takes center stage in the mind.

Jesus taught forgiveness. Why? Because it's way more chill to love and accept another being than to judge and protect yourself against them. Many people don't understand this yet--they're still learning how to be spiritually independent, we all are in actuality.

However, for those that understand the power of forgiveness, you know that it is also more productive for humans to forgive. It lets the energy flow. It allows life, allows God. It allows life, allows God to sculpt the Universe the way S/He sees fit. And because God is the beginning and ending of all things, it follows that whatever God sculpts the Universe into, it is for the good of all

I know I just got a little mystical on you there, but this is how I roll. All humans need to understand that, even though we need to make some changes as a species, we need to start with a more fundamental change--the shift from programmed mind to spontaneous heart, from judgment to embrace, from--at the risk of sounding cliche--fear to love.

Take up your sword, but only 'against' your own shadow. That sword is Love.


G.A.B.E. aka
Excelsior Joymagic

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Today's Clean Energy Is Not The Best We Can Do

Perpetual Energy. Solar and Wind are primitive alternative energy sources, but if you used the truly revolutionary technology that yields several times more energy than it needs, irrespective of whether the wind or sun is captured, then you have something truly amazing. The people aren't ready for it yet, which is unfortunate. They have to wipe the crust out of their eyes just to recognize Solar power, which is in actuality kind of inefficient. Cleaner than coal/oil, but inefficient nonetheless.

I also notice there is a subtle pretentiousness at those who have the 'privilege' of having the ostentatious solar panels or wind turbines in their communities, be in at home or overseas. I laugh at this, truly, because even though it is a step in the right direction, it is yet another petty human ego trip. "Germany has the wind turbines...look how ahead of the curve they are." The truth is that the technology is so old and so behind that it is hysterically laughable. Nothing against Germany at all, I'm more not feeling the mentality of the 'Green Movement'--it's just another hierarchy

The really revolutionizing technologies that are on their way to us are what we really need to demand be in the public arena. How likely is this to happen? Well let me just say I'm not holding my breath. Humanity will need to don the technological training wheels of these and other primitive, yet useful, stepping-stone alternative energy sources and harnessers, until the real deal stuff starts hitting the public marketplace. Hopefully, we will have abolished FRN's (federal reserve notes) by then.



Tuesday, May 6, 2014

I'm not a fan of anyone

I don't really follow a particular artist, director, actor, singer, or producer. When an artist I admire comes up in my awareness I honor them appropriately. The truth is, however, that I only get excited about them because they inspire me to make my own mark.

Because that's all I need them for (on a fundamental level), I don't really go into the other tracks on their album, their lesser-known movies or their lesser-known work in general. I'm excited to create! Lemme get my hands on that mic, or behind that camera, or in front of that camera--I'm gonna show you what EYE can do!

Does that mean I'll never look at lesser known works? No. I just don't follow everything an artist does. I only move when the Spirit moves me. I'm here to create more than consume--or maybe both equally, 'cuz I likes ta eat!

G.A.B.E. Goldiamond aka

Excelsior Joymagic

Friday, May 2, 2014

A Quick Note...

In negative thought, demons surround you. In positive thought, angels surround you.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Raw and Gentle (Poem)

I am raw and gentle in one motion
I am the volcanic island, rumbling with the ire of Gaia, yet my land supports life.
Why do you hypocritically expect me to be safe?
Neither you or I can be a full proof refuge for one another.
I am not a monster,
but I am raw.
I am raw, flesh exposed, as vulnerable to your unconscious barbs
As you are to mine.
It's time that we both admitted that we are both weak in each other's presence, but for good reason.
It is because we Love.
We Love;
We carry the sacred language of the Universe within our hearts.
And it is for this reason that we shouldn't mind being weak,
or vulnerable,
Because absolute vulnerability conquers the mass of creation,
Making us, in truth, completely invulnerable.
So let us be raw and gentle in one motion,
Swirling in the vortex that replays different frames
Of the same moment.

Monday, April 28, 2014

Spiritually Sexy!

Identification with fear is not sexy. A man or woman who knows they have fears, and faces their fears, no matter how slowly or quickly, is sexy.

Stand in your shame, your shyness, your anger, your pride, your desperate need for control.

Stand in it as you look into someone's eyes, watch it change into centeredness, and don't give a f*** 'bout what they other person MIGHT be thinking. If they're meant to continue journeying with you, they will. If they don't, let 'em fly off ya. Shed 'em.

Peace and Blessings,

G.A.B.E. aka
Excelsior Joymagic